If you had asked me 8 years ago if I thought I would one day end up staying at my ex-husbands house with my kids and his new girlfriend while I wait for my flight to South America, I would have howled like a hyena.
And yet here I sit, in his backyard, surrounded by the plants and decor created by his now ex wife, who he married after our divorce. She has good taste in plants for sure. With all the toughness we (my ex husband and I) have faced over the last 8 years, it’s a miracle and a testament to our commitment to work through our shit and forgive that has brought us here.
Yesterday he, a dear friend and an amazing Latino man I hired, moved what was left of our belongings into a tiny storage space. I, of course, under estimated how much “stuff” we still kept and I am still in awe of how they managed to get it all in there. And with that I have closed the door on a beautiful life I am so grateful to have experienced.
As I sit here with my morning coffee and my secret addiction, I feel so… I can’t even find the word… grateful, humbled, loved, safe, supported, excited, a little bit scared of what’s next…all of those things.
I love how we humans have the capacity to feel so many different emotions simultaneously. I am grateful I can sit here and experience each one of them authentically, fully and in awe and a little bit of WTF.
Today is day 1 of the rest of my life and the next adventure. I’m glad I’ve got Ask Amy, Carolyn Hax, Ask Polly and a whole bunch more. I have my Kids, my dear friends and even my ex-husband all with me, in my heart and in person.
For a few years now I have had trouble seeing my abundance, how rich I truly was. I was grateful and yet I knew it was time for us to expand and explore. As I sit here, with 1 suitcase full of clothes a book and my computer, my kids, our animals (about to head out for their own adventure) with the rain washing away the old, I feel rich, I feel full, I feel excitement, anticipation, fear, doubt, love, joy, peace…. That’s a good morning for sure.
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